Perception versus reality

I was legit freaking out over the increase to a 4 minute run with the C210K app. It wasn’t super easy but I did the darn thing. Of course I looked ahead and the workout this morning increased to 5 minute runs. What? You gave me one day with 4 minutes and then increased me to 5?!?! I think I scared myself so much that I didn’t wake up early enough to go to the gym this morning. I never set an alarm because I don’t sleep if I do. I’m always freaking out about not hearing it so I don’t rest well. Yes I realize that might be a little crazy. Anyway…I didn’t make it to the gym this morning. I tried to tell myself I needed the extra sleep even though I know it was because I was being a little punk. I was determined to hit the gym after work to beat that 5 minute monster. I walk in and I’m surrounded by fit, skinny people. Holy ๐Ÿ’ฉthere is a lot of people at the gym at night. I’m giving them all the stink eye. I’m pretty sure they thought it was because I was hating on the fact that they all look amazing and I’m this fat chick. Nope…that wasn’t it at all. I’m actually okay with not being skinny. I just want to feel better and be healthier. I was giving them the stink eye because it was hot as hell in the gym. Which one of you assholes messed with the air conditioner? They are all young so they were getting the momma stare down. No one confessed their sins so I carried on to the dreaded treadmill. There are a couple of people running on the other treadmills and these guys lifting weights behind me. You can see your reflection everywhere so you know when someone is looking at you. Of course they are looking at the fat chick sweating her face off walking slow motion on the treadmill. I carry on because I’m telling myself I don’t care. They don’t know me and they can think what they want. At least I’m there and putting forth the effort. I finish the killer 5 minute runs and take my sweaty ass home. I make my way to the restroom and that is when I realize why they were staring at me. I don’t normally look in the mirror but sometimes I catch a glimpse. You can see thru my damn shirt!! The sweat just made it that much better. ๐Ÿคฆ๐Ÿผโ€โ™€๏ธ I’m thinking I need to go back and collect some cash from those people for the show I just put on. Damn the luck. I guess I need to slow down and look at myself more often. I shouldn’t assume things are one way when clearly it can be something totally different. ๐Ÿคช

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Burpees are the Devil

After the way my tummy feels I can assure you the last thing I wanted to do was workout. Nothing about bubble guts says you should workout. To top it off today was the cardio fix. That pretty much says you are about to get your butt kicked. I decided to go ahead and attempt to workout. The worst thing that could possibly happen is I would have to make a run for the restroom. The fact that I’m working out in my house to a video made the decision pretty easy. You won’t know what you can do until you try. I had some not so nice words for the people in the video, I modified the modified lady and I burbed a lot but I still pushed thru. Burpees and I are not friends. I’m pretty sure the person that invented them was torturing people. That exercise was definitely modified. Regardless I made it thru and did the bonus round. Boom! Tomorrow is Dirty 30. Yeah I’m scared too. ๐Ÿ˜ณ