I chose poorly

I started out on my little adventure today. Let’s just say things are not turning out how I had planned. The cool scenic drive didn’t take place because there was an accident at the exit so it was blocked. I decided to drive to the hotel and perhaps catch sunset on the scenic drive later. I’m not sure if you read the blog yesterday but I was afraid of what the hotels may look like. I booked cheap rooms thinking I would be okay because it is only for one night. Just look at the pictures. I said that exterior room entrances freak me out. Well guess who booked at a hotel with that exact thing. Oh and let’s throw in the corn field for the children of the corn effect. I’m not leaving this room until bright and early in the morning. There will be no sunset drive just so I can come back here at dark. 😳 Hell to the no! Let’s not even talk about the microwave from another decade, the odd smell, the flies or the daddy long leg spider in the jacked up looking bathroom. I’m definitely not showering here. My stinky ass will wait until tomorrow at the next hotel. Let’s pray that one works out better than this one. πŸ™πŸ» Lesson learned…stop being so damn cheap.


All over the place

There are a thousand things running thru my brain right now. I know I need to give an update on my fitness assessment appointment but I secretly want to talk about this show I just watched. 😬 So…I’m totally going to do both and throw in whatever else. πŸ€ͺ I decided to do the couch to 10K before doing the fitness assessment. I did this for two reasons. One…I have a schedule damn it. Two…I wanted her to know I had already completed cardio for today so there was no need to put me back on the treadmill for whatever crazy thing she had planned. My evil plan worked. I mean everything worked out exactly how it was supposed to. I did another body scan. She asked me my goals, talked about nutrition and set a weight loss goal. She showed me some upper body machines I can work on and suggested I do yoga at least once a week. It was a great appointment that helps me know what to do going forward on this journey. Blah blah blah. Okay, okay, okay…can we talk about the show now? Tonight was the final show for Married at First Sight. Did you see the crazy? I knew that Greg and Deonna would stay together. They just make sense. I really thought Keith and Iris would stay together too. I know he is kicking himself for letting her go. Next up was Matt and Amber. I was worried for a moment that she would cave and want to stay married. Poor girl is so sweet and seemed to really try to make it work. Matt is such a tool that will struggle in relationships if he doesn’t deal with his own demons. I hope Amber gets with her best friend. You lost a good one Matt. Jamie and Elizabeth were definitely the rollercoaster couple. They seem to both be really passionate people. She at least expresses herself but he tends to bottle up and then throw jabs. They make sense in a dysfunctional kind of way. πŸ€·β€β™€οΈ Yes I did talk to the tv the whole show. They should have listened to me. πŸ€¦πŸΌβ€β™€οΈ Anyway, on to the next thing. I’m finally going on a little adventure tomorrow. I’m excited but maybe also a little worried. I thought I was being smart by booking cheap hotels since I’m only staying a night or two in each. I just need a bed and hot shower is what I told myself. Hotels with exterior room entrances freak me out so not that cheap. It’s not a pay by the hour hotel either. It’s cheap though. Fingers, toes and eyes crossed that it’s all okay. There isn’t a workout room in two of the hotels so I’m forced to take a few days off. Perhaps it is needed. Oh…on a positive note I’m still in ketosis! Maybe I should have dessert more often. Just kidding. Tomorrow is going to be a long day so I should probably put my crazy away and try to calm my mind. Hope you had or will have an amazing day! Say a little prayer for me and the puppy as we travel. πŸ™πŸ»

I cheated 🀫

I guess I should start from the beginning. I weighed myself this morning and I’m officially down 19 pounds after 4 weeks of being on keto and going to the gym. I was feeling all confident and positive when I got to the gym this morning. I lost more weight and I was awesome with that whole 15 minute drama yesterday. I stopped at the front desk so I could schedule time with someone to show me the ropes with the weights. I throw my stuff in the locker and head for the treadmill. My favorite treadmill is open. Best day ever! I open the couch to 10K app and may have gasped out loud, shed a tear or something else super dramatic. What in the entire hell is going on? They jumped to 20 minutes of walking faster/running. 😳 What happened to 16, 17, 18, and 19 minutes? You are just going to skip them like the don’t exist? They have feelings too. πŸ€·β€β™€οΈ There is only a 5 minute warmup and 5 minute cool down with the 20 minute run in the middle. Seriously?!? I may have had a moment on the treadmill. Suck it up buttercup and get moving so you can get to the pool. I’m not going to lie…it was the longest 20 minutes of my life. I was okay I guess until the 17 minute mark. I was ready to wave the white flag at that point. I had to keep telling myself there was only 3 minutes left. You can totally do this. I’m pretty sure time stood still or moved a lot slower than it needed to. After what felt like an eternity, I finished the workout. πŸ™Œ Next I was off to change for water aerobics. Class was interesting today. There was no instructor so there was a lot of people trying to lead. πŸ€¦πŸΌβ€β™€οΈ Ladies…just stop or I will be forced to ignore your crazy. I tried to be nice but my face was doing something else. They are sweet, old ladies but grabbing my ankle and stretching is not the workout I was looking for. After class I noticed I missed a call. Apparently the weights appointment I just scheduled needs to be rescheduled. I stop by the desk on the way out and take care of it. I asked the lady if I needed to bring anything with me. She hands me a piece of paper with the details. I glance at it when I get in the car. Ummm….tell me why the show me how to do these weights thing turned into a damn fitness test. That’s right…a fitness test. I just escaped 300 pounds. I can assure you the last thing I want to do is a fitness test. You have now forced me to eat my feelings. I shared a yummy but sinful dessert after dinner. 😬 I’ve been so good with the 20 net carbs but today I ended with 100. 😒 I can pretend I earned it but that isn’t what I should be doing. I’m worried what this means for the keto life. Am I no longer in ketosis? Is my tummy going to hate me? Oh that will just be perfect to have bubble guts while trying to do that lovely fitness test. 😀 Today isn’t my friend so I’m going to bed. I guess I will deal with the consequences tomorrow.

Is this impossible?

I’m ashamed of how many times I have asked myself that question. I’ve been using this couch to 10K app to help get me moving. I’m not actually running while doing it so I’m not sure if I will reach the 10K distance by the time I finish the app or not. I’ve been walking and then walking a little faster on the run parts. I can’t tell you the amount of times I have cursed the creators of the app and their moms. The idea is to walk for so many minutes and then run for so many minutes. Each day the run minutes increase. By week 5 they start skipping numbers. You go from running 6 minutes to running 8. Week 6 you jump to running 10 minutes. Today was day 3 of week 6 and can you believe they jumped to 15 minutes of running? Ma’am/Sir…what the hell happened to 7, 9, and the very important 11, 12, 13, and 14? Is this a torture technique? I looked ahead last night so I knew today would include the 15 minute run. That was my first mistake. The really sad part is this isn’t my first time using this app. Clearly this crazy had slipped my mind. Anyway, I didn’t sleep well so I was prepared to sleep in and perhaps not do the couch to 10K today. I’m pretty sure God was pointing at me and laughing when I woke up early. What other excuse can I come up with? My knees have been killing me. Maybe I should take another rest day or just go to the swim class. The 15 minutes just seems impossible for me. Then I was reminded of what a dear friend has been telling me. Celebrate every victory. You may not be where you think you should be but you are making progress. It’s better than where you were a month ago. I rolled out of bed and headed to the gym. I will admit I was still worried about the 15 minutes. I told myself I would do what I can do. I’m in control of the treadmill so if I need to lower the speed before the 15 then I can do that. The goal was to go for as long as I could at the higher speed. I tried really hard to not watch the minutes on the app. That didn’t really work out. I looked down several times but instead of dreading how many minutes I had left, I cheered myself on for how many had already passed. If I’m being honest, I could have gone longer than the 15 minutes at the higher speed. I’m not sure how much longer but I’m excited to find out. It’s only impossible if I don’t try. πŸ€—

Wasting time?

Yes this is another self evaluation moment. As I was working out this morning I couldn’t help but wonder if I’m using my time wisely. What would you do if you had time to do it? I thought that going to the gym and working on myself physically was an obvious choice. I’m losing weight but still wonder if I’m really making progress. I know that may sound silly but I want to feel different and I really don’t at the moment. It makes me question if what I’m doing is working. Anyway, after I finish at the gym each day I head home to walk the dogs, shower, wash clothes if needed and then it’s a law and order marathon. That’s pretty much my day 6 days a week. Should I go back to the gym after walking the dogs? Maybe read a book? I thought about volunteering but not sure if that is the best idea since I will be leaving in a month or so. 😬 So…am I just wasting valuable time? I would say yes but not sure what to fill it with. This is so pathetic. Maybe I can find an afternoon yoga class. πŸ€·β€β™€οΈ Maybe I should take the puppy out for a walk. I’m not sure but I really need to figure it out soon.

Water aerobics drama

I know this may sound extremely naive but I assumed that the older you get the less drama there is. Just so you know, I was wrong. There is some old lady drama happening in the pool. These ladies are retired and range in age from 65-85. πŸ€¦πŸΌβ€β™€οΈ Our water aerobics instructor resigned so we are temporarily without an instructor. The water therapy instructor has agreed to teach two of the classes. Apparently she isn’t well liked by a majority of the aerobics class. 😬 They think she is negative and talks about members and other instructors. I’ve heard it so it isn’t a complete lie. I had hoped it was just her having a bad day though. They also said that she does the same thing every single class. No weights or board. Just the pool noodle life. 😳 Girl must not know I just bought the triple dumbbells. I don’t have time for a noodle. Thursday is the first class with her so I guess we will see how it goes. I wonder how many people will show. Maybe she has changed. πŸ€”Speaking of the triple dumbbells…the equipment came in on Friday and I tried it out at Saturday’s class. We would put the double dumbbells behind our knee on one of the exercises. Just for the record…the triple does not fit behind this big knee. 🀣 I caused the end to pop off and I had to put the poor dumbbell back together. The ladies enjoyed the crazy. I guess you don’t know until you try. πŸ€·β€β™€οΈπŸ˜

I almost died today…twice

That may be a little dramatic but if you have been reading this blog at all then you should not be shocked. We decided to explore some new places today. I chose some nature place that had lots of trails, a lake and rock climbing. I’m thinking that I will get some great pictures and my friend can try rock climbing. We grabbed a map and just randomly pick a direction. This would be the first time I almost died. We started heading to the trail and a giant snake slithers across the trail. Ummm…that’s a hard pass. You can have that trail Mr. Snake and keep all of your friends with you. We picked another direction and started walking. We quickly learned that this trail was leading us to our car. We then decided to cut thru to another trail. Yep…it led us back to the car too. Apparently reading a map and having any sense of direction is not our strong suit. I decided that maybe hiking was not something I was prepared for. Maybe a guide and preparation conversation should be had prior to attempting that again. We decided to grab some food. Just because I’m starting the 4th week of the keto diet does not mean that meals are better without bread, taco shells or whatever. I may not crave it but I still want it. I had a taco salad but really wanted a giant burrito smothered in all the queso. 🀀 After lunch we decided to try another place. You guessed it…we found a paved trail and started to walk it. Maybe not the best idea after eating lunch but clearly we are living on the edge. It was so freakin hot. πŸ₯΅ I’m pretty sure my ears are sunburned. Anyway…we start walking and have no idea how long the trail is. We agree to turn around once we reach a mile so that we are only walking 2 miles. We reach our turnaround point and right as we are about to turn around two ladies ride by on bikes and tell us the end is only two hills away. I’m sweating like crazy and am breathing pretty heavy at this point. I wasn’t dying but I’m pretty sure my friend was concerned. I didn’t realize walking such a short distance would be so challenging. I guess it was a combination of my size, the heat, the hills and just being out of shape. I decided I wanted to continue until the end anyway. They said there was a beautiful lookout at the end of the trail. Attached is the picture. It isn’t super amazing but I’m just happy we reached the end. We didn’t quit and turn around when we could have. It wasn’t a million miles more either but those hills felt like giant mountains. Heading back seemed to go faster but it was still difficult. I’ve never been so excited to get in a hot car. I think the total ended up being 2.5 miles for that walk but close to 6 miles for the day. I haven’t reached over 10,000 steps in a long time. That feels great! I can tell you what doesn’t feel great though. The chafing that is occurring under my boobs. Sweet baby Jesus! I’m thinking I should just live a braless life and let the girls hang whatever direction they want. Hmmm well that seems like a great place to end this one. πŸ˜‚ Have a great night! Oh wait…it’s weigh in day. I forgot to add that update. I haven’t completely hit a wall but I think the big losses are behind me. I’m now up to 14.6 pounds lost. It’s not horrible for 3 weeks but I had hoped for more. πŸ€·β€β™€οΈ