Excuses or horrible priorities?

Sorry…it’s been a while since my last confession. I’m not sure if I like making excuses, have crappy luck or am just not disciplined enough. Life knows how to throw me some curveballs and then I just strike out. I seriously fail every time there is a choice between me and something else. The first excuse on the list is after a very long time in one house we decided to relocate to another house. This moving process has been going on for about two weeks. There is just too much junk and not enough time. Why is there no time? Well my work life sucks…a lot. We are down at least seven people. I had this glorious plan that in March I would be focusing on one job, leave work at a decent time and get healthy. Then everything was turned upside down. Now I’m working at least 12 hour days and am unable to keep a consistent gym schedule. Tomorrow is my monthly weigh in and I’m pretty sure I didn’t meet the goal. It all just sucks. I want to be awesome for my team but I’m worried about my health. How can I make this work? I feel like I have to cover as much as I can at work so more people don’t leave. I know that’s crazy but I’m not sure what else to do. So…I’m further down the priority list again. Same problem but just a different year. I just need to come up with a plan of attack. Until then I will squeeze in gym time whenever I can and try to make it all work. 😬

Mirror, mirror on the wall

I’ve avoided mirrors for years. Why stand and stare at myself if I’m not happy with what I see? The gym is surrounded with mirrors and that was a huge struggle for me when I first started going. The trainer wanted me to look at myself so I could see my form and movements. I would look at her instead. Once in a while I would look at myself. Conversations with myself slowly started to happen. This is all part of my journey. I may not be happy with what I see but I’m working on it. In the beginning I would pick myself apart. There was a list of flaws. Now it’s just me becoming a better version on myself. Let’s not get crazy. I’m not going to going to stare at myself for hours or stop every time I see my reflection. I’m just not running from it anymore. Learning to love myself is a process. At some point I had to realize I am who I am. My double chin isn’t going to disappear overnight. My eyes are my eyes. My nose is my nose. My body is my body. All of these things are just what people see and don’t determine who I am at my core. I happen to like myself. I’m honest, caring and pretty funny at times. That to me is more important than what I can see with my eyes. My physical appearance will change more and more thru the years. This winning personality though…it will be constant. 😉

Meal prep amateur 

I’ve tried to avoid meal prepping for the longest. People swear by it but I do not get excited about leftovers. Needless to say I know my eating habits are more than likely the main reason I haven’t lost as much as I probably should have at this point. Meal prepping provides me with a plan and as long as I am disciplined it should work. I didn’t want to get too crazy with the meals. After all I suck at cooking and I didn’t want to prepare a bunch of food that I would end up throwing away. So…I made turkey chili and baked chicken. My game plan was to have turkey chili three days and baked chicken, rice and green beans for two days. I even purchased snacks so I could attempt to eat something every 4-6 hours. The first strike occurred when I didn’t make enough rice for both meals. I ended up with chili and rice for one meal and baked chicken and lots of green beans for the second meal. The second strike came when I realized I sucked at eating 4-6 times a day. It’s actually really hard if you aren’t used to it. Once I can develop a routine then I will probably set alarms to help me with this. Meetings, work and not having a consistent workout schedule threw me off this week. Strike three…chili with lots of beans may not be the best food to consume multiple times a week while trying to workout. It brought a whole new meaning to bubble guts. 😬I’m sure I made tons of new friends at the gym. There were some positives with meal prepping as well. I didn’t stress about cooking or wondering what I was eating every day and night. It was actually nice to stay at the office and get some work accomplished instead of going out to eat. Oh and I’m sure I saved money by not eating out every day. I will be honest and say I did make my way to Starbucks twice. I love their oatmeal and I had to have the pumpkin spice latte before it’s gone. All in all I would say there were more positives than negatives with it. I definitely plan to do it again but will avoid turkey chili for the next round. I will prep again on Sunday and will weigh in again on Wednesday. I’m curious and nervous to see what the scale will show. Wish me luck!