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There are a thousand things running thru my head right now. I leave in a few days for my birthday trip. My plan was to lose 15 pounds before this weekend and be a stair master so I wouldn’t get kicked out of the Statue of Liberty. I really had the best intentions but as usual my commitment to working out and eating right wasn’t there. Oh I have a laundry list of excuses. Work has been crazy since the last vacation, my sleep routine has been off, there isn’t enough time, the funds have been limited, I don’t have energy, it’s too late now so why bother and the list just keeps going. I’ve lost 2 pounds since January 1st. There are some that will say that I should be happy with that. At least I didn’t gain weight. I think that is ridiculous. I’m damn near 300 pounds. I can lose 2 pounds in a day just walking to pee. There is no need to sugar coat or lie to myself. I didn’t do the work so I didn’t reach my goal. Yeah it sucks but it was expected. I walked and did the stairs a couple of times but that is it. So….I’m sorry to my friend if this trip doesn’t turn out like we had hoped. It is totally my fault. Clearly my priorites are not and have not been in order. There is no sense pretending that I’m going to get it together before the end of January. I do promise to try harder in February. I know what needs to be done I just need to actually do it. Words are just blah blah blah if there is no action. Time to come up with a plan and put it into action. 

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2 thoughts on “Blah blah blah

  1. I admire you more than you can imagine lady! I know this is your blog HOWEVER, because after 3 decades I will not change…….Mother Nature woman cut yourself some slack. You are doing so well and I am so proud of you. If I have learned anything from the justification of being my own worst enemy is that if I continued to state the obvious (which is typically I am ___ or ___ and it is 99.9% negative over and over and over and over my mind was being old school Pavlov ie classic conditioning to autopilot into the negative realm. One min at a time honey. If we do not succeed then by god keep trying and think positive. Yes this from a realist or by public view a pessimist but I have altered that mentality to use on everything but my healing and growing. YOU are the most brilliant woman I have every known and for what its worth… Why not give it a try….
    Love someone who was addicted to anything you can imagine……and learned to be addicted to my happy life…

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    • I love you! The mental battle will be the toughest one I face. I know I must change my way of thinking. It will be an extremely slow process I’m sure. Once I have the right mindset then there are no limits. šŸ˜Š

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