I’m not sure what is happening with me. I had it all planned out in my mind. Beginning January 1st I was going to hit the ground running. New Year…New You. I had myself all pumped up and then nothing. I don’t know if I was exhausted from my trip, dreading going back to work, reading way too much about side effects and PCOS or just being lazy. All I’ve done since I’ve been home is unpack, do laundry and have a serious Netflix marathon. I would like to say it was only one day but the truth is it has been a few. If we are being completely honest I’m sure I hit a new low today. I walked straight from my bed to the couch. I’m pretty sure I didn’t even brush my teeth and I definitely never put a bra on or got dressed. Pretty depressing. Tomorrow is my first day back at work. I’m already thinking about how tough the week will be and it hasn’t even started. Perhaps getting back in the swing of things at work will provide me with a schedule again and I will start working out. I’m not sure what is happening with me but I need to fix it. I think part of the problem is I stopped drinking my shakes while I was on vacation. I just started back yesterday so hopefully after this week I will feel a little more entergized. I still hate taking all of the pills that I’m taking. That in itself is depressing. I just wish I could be normal and not have to take meds. I’m taking 3 prescriptions and a multivitamin right now. Needless to say I would love to do away with the prescriptions but feel pretty stuck right now. Oh hell…enough of the pity party craziness. I said I would take the meds for 3 months and that’s what I’m doing. I need to stop trying to sabatoge myself and get after it with the exercise side of things too. I said I wanted to lose 20 pounds in January. I can’t do that on the couch. Time to start moving. I want to lose 20 pounds in January and a total of 40 pounds by the end of March. Anything is possible right?