I know it’s super easy to look at others and pass judgement. Do you ever look at yourself and do the same? I do it all the time. I constantly reflect on things I’ve said and done. There is usually a great debate about the person I am and want to be. It’s a time when I recognize where I’ve fallen short and try to understand why. Then I decide how I will move forward. This past week was another week of not working out to the videos. I had the best intentions to do them and walk daily but I seem to run out of time. I did manage to walk every day but Monday. I did cheat a little bit with a couple of meals but I stuck with drinking my Shakeology shakes daily. Needless to say I’m a little scared of the scale tomorrow. Considering this is my second week of workout failure I know I need to change something. I wake up super early to go walking but I spend a little too much time at the beach. I can’t help it…sunrise is so beautiful and the beach is so peaceful. I get lost in my thoughts there for sure. By the time I make it home I’m rushing to get ready for work. The sad part is that I’m not rushing because I’m late. I’m rushing because I want to get to work as early as I can. Once at work I stay later than I should. By the time I get home I’m eating dinner late and I’m just blah. We watch one or two shows and then I’m off to bed. I repeat the same thing each day. After my lovely self evaluation I’ve determined that I’m a workaholic that allows work to rule my life. I’ve carved a very small piece of my day out for me and the rest is dedicated to work. My day at work dictates the person that I am at home. It’s impossible to separate the two. If you have a bad day at work then you are going to take it out on your loved ones at home. You may not yell at them but if you withdraw because you don’t want to be bothered then you are still impacting them. I work more hours than is required. I think my fear of letting others down drives that bus. The sad part is I don’t realize that I’m letting myself, my family and friends down. I will never be the healthiest version of me if I continue down my same workaholic road. I know that if I feel better I will be a happier person which everyone around me would benefit from. Nobody likes hanging around with the angry fat chick. Moral of the story…I need to make changes to my work schedule and start focusing on the things that are really important. It’s going to be super hard to break this habit but I have to change. Living a life ruled by work really isn’t much of a life.